To date, this is really the largest work that I have ever set out to create. And as the dust begins to settle on certain events that have informed the final version of this work to be installed in 65 days... well, I am seriously beginning to think that I have made a mountain out of a molehill. However, it is a little to late to turn back now. It is go big or go home time. In the grand scheme of things did this one event that happened really matter, likely not. At this point I supposed it is more about human behaviors in general, rather than what occurred, or did not occur between two people.
I have spent some of today transcribing some of the stories that were submitted to the site. Those 11 individuals were brave enough to write down some pretty darn haunting stories. I owe it to them to see this thing through on a grand scale, more so than it being an outlet for my feelings about being rejected. I supposed had I not had this recent experience, I might not have had that fire in my belly lit to see it through to the scale that I am planning.
Art making can be a crazy thing, full of the most amazing highs about the direction of a project, and in the blink of an eye the self doubt starts creeping in... How will this look? Will people understand it? Will any one care? Did I just waste a whole bunch of time and material on this? I guess should just even one person be moved by the reasons for my work, then my job is done. Should just one person reevaluate even a tiny aspect of their life... then I have made a difference.
So, this project is for you 11 brave souls, I will see it through, it will be big and it will be meaningful... if only to the 12 of us. I owe that much to you. Now, hopefully I don't lose my mind in the process of pulling this thing together. Here's to art in all it's madness... and I wouldn't have it any other way.
Now, someone refill my coffee cup, I'm going to need it.